I was just reading this post by Alison. She reminded me that nobody I know reads my blog, no one I know even knows I have a blog. I try really hard to make sure no one knows who I am.
But the fact remains that if someone I know reads this blog they might guess who I am.
What Alison's kind words really reminded me of was the sad fact that even though nobody who knows me knows about my blog, I still have a very hard time being completely honest about what is going on in my foster care life. I am completely paranoid of being found out.
It makes me sad to think that I am not really any closer to find my voice than when I started this blog last summer.
I feel that I have grown and expanded in so many amazing ways through foster care, but I still cannot bring myself to give too much of myself to this blog.
With every post I feel exposed, but at the same time I hold back so much from the fear I have.
The thought of Primo's social worker, DHS worker, or bio parents finding out that I am writing this blog completely freaks me out.
I am not sure how to go on with this blog? How personal can I get with it? I'm having trouble walking this fine line.